| Monday, May 12, 2008 |
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This is a picture of the sunrise from the living room window at work. It was about 6:15 in the morning. I've taken a couple of picture of the sunrise now and I'm hoping to get a collectoin of some good ones. Nothing special but I still think they are pretty. |
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| Sunday, May 11, 2008 |
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Work is an interesting thing. I clean a little, sit around all night and then most of the time I have a trying morning. I pray for patience every morning, or at least I should. My mornings usually consist of Tim purposely annoying me and trying to redirect Kacey from his latest obsession.
Kacey can be real OCD. He obsesses over a lot of things though,the most common thing Kacey obsesses about is the Buick. He usually asks things like, is the Buick going to be there when I get home, is the Buick fixed now, is it going anywhere? Stuff like that. And he goes on and on, rambling and mumbling. At times it is easy to redirect Kacey and at other times its down right impossible. I love him though, he can be pretty funny. Though, lately he has had a couple of bouts of med-evil after he takes his meds. Med-evil is what we call is when he really starts freaking out. This morning he had some med-evil. It was quite interesting because is was the first time he has every done it for me and of course I was all by myself and didn't really know what to do about it. About a hour after he took his meds he started yelling a lot, like almost constantly. Its not like he yells words, its more of just a yodeling sound. I could never imagine how much it really sounds like yodeling until I heard it. Right away I was like, "Oh, so this is what Destiny was talking about." A strange sound indeed.
Tim is very high energy in the mornings. Hes always up at about 6:10, even though he doesn't have to get up until 6:30. Tim is an individual who needs a lot affirmation. He needs you to tell him his own opinions, like if he likes a certain movie or if he should take a shower now. Tim says hello every time he sees you, so about five times throughout the morning. This isn't too bad at all, he does get annoying though when he does things he knows he shouldn't. When he tests how far he can go. Such as, Tim tries to touch my hair every single morning even though he knows he can't. And he'll persist on making sounds that he knows I find annoying. I have to constantly ask him to behave in a more adult manor. This is particularly annoying because I feel like it never makes a difference. Another of Tim's quirks is that he'll repeat himself quite a bit. He'll tell you something over and over again and you have to remind him that we don't repeat ourselves. Also, every morning he'll tell or show you the same things, such as, his model train catalogs or some videos he recorded.
I know this is how the guys are and I wouldn't try to change them, its just that they can be particularly annoying or overwhelming after staying up all night on little sleep. Their redemption is sometimes found in John and Paul. Paul is real easy except for the fact that at times he is a bit difficult to understand, I'm better at it now than I was when I first started. Paul is easy because all you really have to do is his meds and make him breakfast, which is always cereal and a piece of bread with jelly. On weekdays you do have to watch him brush his teeth and help him change his sheets and that isn't hard at all. On weekends Paul immediately goes back to bed after breakfast.
John you don't really have to do anything for. You supervise his meds, but he does that all himself, you just watch. He makes his own breakfast and the most common thing you have to prompt him for is brushing his teeth. I never do John's routine though because I leave before he goes to work so the other staff always does his morning routine. John is kinda difficult because he thinks hes above all the other guys, better than them. He talks about getting his drivers license and going to college one day. At this time I can't see that ever happening though because for starters he can't read. John is very able though, so who knows. It can be hard though because John is so much more able than the other guys. It makes me want to treat him as an equal and it makes me reluctant to tell him what to do. So that can be a problem.
Overall, I really like this job. The week long haul can get... well,... Long. And the week long vacation is nice though at time short. The pay is good, though I wish I got more for being awake overnight staff. |
| posted by June @ 5:03 AM |
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| Friday, May 9, 2008 |
| Love Rescues Me |
An odd concept, is it not? That something so simple and complex as Love can save me from anything that this world can throw at me. Or so to speak. His never ending ability to love and understand me and forgive me, is something that I really feel that I don't deserve. And really I don't. Sometimes I catch myself being a bit presumptuous in that light, something that I'm sure has to do with growing up in the Church. Maybe...
I'm a horrible person. I keep and keep on falling and most of the time I don't want to be picked up. I just want to sit down here and wallow in my mud and slim, my sin. I do so crave to rise above where I am right now and leave it all behind. But I feel that heavy burden of impossibility, of having to do it all by myself. Intellectually I know that I can't, that I need Him to help me. I know this but at the same time when I ask for help its half-hearted and meaningless. You see, like I said before, I don't really want to leave my sin, its nice and comfortable, like a warm bed on a cold morning. I know eventually I have to leave it, but I'll always look at in longing in those week moments. And there I am again, assuming I have to be strong. It all just makes me want to cry.
I don't know if working nights is a good thing or a bad thing yet. It gives me all this time to sit and read, this could be bad. Maybe I should just sit and write all night. Eventually I think I would run out of things to write. Maybe I should start writing stories, I've thought about that lately. Or I could sit and read my Bible and pray and get ready for my Bible study. That would be good. Any of the above would be constructive. I want this to be a good thing and not just about making money. Not to mention learning the deal with the guys and what life skills that brings me. I need to be more patient with them.
So this last Wednesday night at church was interesting. I was to go downstairs with the Jr High, which was all well and good, except that first I had to deal with Adonia Brown. Adonia had something of a major emotional meltdown during the Drama Team's presentation of Slow Fade. Adonia said it reminded her of some past mistakes having to do with a party of her brother's, where she got drunk and how her mother kicked her, and I'm assuming, her siblings out of the house. I was actually surprised how she opened up right away and told me all about it, about what had happened.
So I sat with her and hugged her and let her cry and tried to comfort her. I don't know if anything I said had any meaning to her or helped at all, but I hope I managed to establishe some sort of relationship with her. We'll see.
I do need to keep my eye on her in the future though, because I have been warned by Robin Schow that Adonia might have these little "episodes" just because she knows it gets her attention. Which isn't surprising considering her background. So, ya know, in the future we'll try and keep it short and Spirit filled and then redirection!
Also, Laranda came down after awhile to see how Adonia was doing and I kind of wished she hadn't. I know she was just being a good friend and trying to help, but... I don't think Laranda helped at all, in fact something she said only made Adonia blow up again. Anyways after I got them to go into the Jr. High room, Adonia was all hunky dory, so that was that.
I'll try and develope a dialogue with both girls in the future. I hope this will encourage them to come to youth group more regularly. There were a couple others that I should get to know, such as, beautiful little Liz and her friend. There was also a spunky little one who complemented my earrings whose name I don't know, I should pay some attention to her.
Well, until we meet again... |
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Name: June
Home: Duluth, Minnesota, United States
About Me: I am a Christian. I work as much as I possibly can, which sometimes isn't very much. I'm a Youth Leader and absolutely love all my kids.
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