Return From NeverLand

Monday, May 12, 2008

This is a picture of the sunrise from the living room window at work. It was about 6:15 in the morning. I've taken a couple of picture of the sunrise now and I'm hoping to get a collectoin of some good ones. Nothing special but I still think they are pretty.

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Sunday, May 11, 2008

Work is an interesting thing. I clean a little, sit around all night and then most of the time I have a trying morning. I pray for patience every morning, or at least I should. My mornings usually consist of Tim purposely annoying me and trying to redirect Kacey from his latest obsession.

Kacey can be real OCD. He obsesses over a lot of things though,the most common thing Kacey obsesses about is the Buick. He usually asks things like, is the Buick going to be there when I get home, is the Buick fixed now, is it going anywhere? Stuff like that. And he goes on and on, rambling and mumbling. At times it is easy to redirect Kacey and at other times its down right impossible. I love him though, he can be pretty funny. Though, lately he has had a couple of bouts of med-evil after he takes his meds. Med-evil is what we call is when he really starts freaking out. This morning he had some med-evil. It was quite interesting because is was the first time he has every done it for me and of course I was all by myself and didn't really know what to do about it. About a hour after he took his meds he started yelling a lot, like almost constantly. Its not like he yells words, its more of just a yodeling sound. I could never imagine how much it really sounds like yodeling until I heard it. Right away I was like, "Oh, so this is what Destiny was talking about." A strange sound indeed.

Tim is very high energy in the mornings. Hes always up at about 6:10, even though he doesn't have to get up until 6:30. Tim is an individual who needs a lot affirmation. He needs you to tell him his own opinions, like if he likes a certain movie or if he should take a shower now. Tim says hello every time he sees you, so about five times throughout the morning. This isn't too bad at all, he does get annoying though when he does things he knows he shouldn't. When he tests how far he can go. Such as, Tim tries to touch my hair every single morning even though he knows he can't. And he'll persist on making sounds that he knows I find annoying. I have to constantly ask him to behave in a more adult manor. This is particularly annoying because I feel like it never makes a difference. Another of Tim's quirks is that he'll repeat himself quite a bit. He'll tell you something over and over again and you have to remind him that we don't repeat ourselves. Also, every morning he'll tell or show you the same things, such as, his model train catalogs or some videos he recorded.

I know this is how the guys are and I wouldn't try to change them, its just that they can be particularly annoying or overwhelming after staying up all night on little sleep. Their redemption is sometimes found in John and Paul. Paul is real easy except for the fact that at times he is a bit difficult to understand, I'm better at it now than I was when I first started. Paul is easy because all you really have to do is his meds and make him breakfast, which is always cereal and a piece of bread with jelly. On weekdays you do have to watch him brush his teeth and help him change his sheets and that isn't hard at all. On weekends Paul immediately goes back to bed after breakfast.

John you don't really have to do anything for. You supervise his meds, but he does that all himself, you just watch. He makes his own breakfast and the most common thing you have to prompt him for is brushing his teeth. I never do John's routine though because I leave before he goes to work so the other staff always does his morning routine. John is kinda difficult because he thinks hes above all the other guys, better than them. He talks about getting his drivers license and going to college one day. At this time I can't see that ever happening though because for starters he can't read. John is very able though, so who knows. It can be hard though because John is so much more able than the other guys. It makes me want to treat him as an equal and it makes me reluctant to tell him what to do. So that can be a problem.

Overall, I really like this job. The week long haul can get... well,... Long. And the week long vacation is nice though at time short. The pay is good, though I wish I got more for being awake overnight staff.

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Friday, May 9, 2008

Love Rescues Me

An odd concept, is it not? That something so simple and complex as Love can save me from anything that this world can throw at me. Or so to speak. His never ending ability to love and understand me and forgive me, is something that I really feel that I don't deserve. And really I don't. Sometimes I catch myself being a bit presumptuous in that light, something that I'm sure has to do with growing up in the Church. Maybe...

I'm a horrible person. I keep and keep on falling and most of the time I don't want to be picked up. I just want to sit down here and wallow in my mud and slim, my sin. I do so crave to rise above where I am right now and leave it all behind. But I feel that heavy burden of impossibility, of having to do it all by myself. Intellectually I know that I can't, that I need Him to help me. I know this but at the same time when I ask for help its half-hearted and meaningless. You see, like I said before, I don't really want to leave my sin, its nice and comfortable, like a warm bed on a cold morning. I know eventually I have to leave it, but I'll always look at in longing in those week moments. And there I am again, assuming I have to be strong. It all just makes me want to cry.

I don't know if working nights is a good thing or a bad thing yet. It gives me all this time to sit and read, this could be bad. Maybe I should just sit and write all night. Eventually I think I would run out of things to write. Maybe I should start writing stories, I've thought about that lately. Or I could sit and read my Bible and pray and get ready for my Bible study. That would be good. Any of the above would be constructive. I want this to be a good thing and not just about making money. Not to mention learning the deal with the guys and what life skills that brings me. I need to be more patient with them.

So this last Wednesday night at church was interesting. I was to go downstairs with the Jr High, which was all well and good, except that first I had to deal with Adonia Brown. Adonia had something of a major emotional meltdown during the Drama Team's presentation of Slow Fade. Adonia said it reminded her of some past mistakes having to do with a party of her brother's, where she got drunk and how her mother kicked her, and I'm assuming, her siblings out of the house. I was actually surprised how she opened up right away and told me all about it, about what had happened.

So I sat with her and hugged her and let her cry and tried to comfort her. I don't know if anything I said had any meaning to her or helped at all, but I hope I managed to establishe some sort of relationship with her. We'll see.

I do need to keep my eye on her in the future though, because I have been warned by Robin Schow that Adonia might have these little "episodes" just because she knows it gets her attention. Which isn't surprising considering her background. So, ya know, in the future we'll try and keep it short and Spirit filled and then redirection!

Also, Laranda came down after awhile to see how Adonia was doing and I kind of wished she hadn't. I know she was just being a good friend and trying to help, but... I don't think Laranda helped at all, in fact something she said only made Adonia blow up again. Anyways after I got them to go into the Jr. High room, Adonia was all hunky dory, so that was that.

I'll try and develope a dialogue with both girls in the future. I hope this will encourage them to come to youth group more regularly. There were a couple others that I should get to know, such as, beautiful little Liz and her friend. There was also a spunky little one who complemented my earrings whose name I don't know, I should pay some attention to her.

Well, until we meet again...

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Saturday, April 26, 2008

Dear Prudence

Dear Prudence, won't you come out to play
Dear Prudence, greet the brand new day
The sun is up, the sky is blue
It's beautiful and so are you
Dear Prudence won't you come out to play

Crazy! It has been almost a whole month since I had last posted. Thats kinda sad but I have been so busy! On the 9th of April, I started at REM for real. I think my first week went really well. I didn't have any problems to speak of, except once I had to talk Tracy around to get up, and once I had to talk Tom into taking a shower, but that was all really. I did well with the whole working nights thing. Got enough sleep during the days and I felt like I barely needed coffee for most of the week.

On a side note, I believe it was Monday the fourteenth that Tim left for LA to go to China. Thats really exciting, I can't wait until he gets back so that he can tell me all about it! Right now it is four a.m. here so that means that it would be five p.m. there. Crazy Pants! I actually got to IM with him on Thursday morning. That was awesome, except we had to sensor what we talked about and he couldn't really answer any of my questions. He is suppose to come back on this Thursday or Friday.

My week off went super fast. I don't even remember what I did. I think it was mostly filled with vegging around the house with Mom. I did dig out some of my room and organize some stuff. Mom, Dad and I went to see the movie Leatherheads and out to supper at the China Star. That was nice, little quality time with the 'rents.

Oh, yeah, and I got fired too. That was some fun times there. Jay said it was because I had put them in a bind one too many times and that I wasn't available enough anymore. The straw that really broke the camels back was this whole fiasco with a shift on Thursday coinciding with a training with REM. Of course I had to go to the training so I traded the shift away to Billy for one of his shifts on Saturday. Then last minute, Wednesday night at about eleven, I get a call from Bill saying that Gail refused the shift swap. I didn't even know they did that. So I checked my messages and low and behold I have a message from Gail from Tuesday. She said that I had to get back to her about Thursday but by this time its too late. I talk to Bill and he says that its because they can't have my first shift on the new computers be a busy Saturday morning. Well, I call Jay early Thursday morning and tell him I can't work the shift because this class is more important. Yeah. That worked out well. So the whole thing is my fault because I didn't get back to Gail because I didn't get the message, also because I forgot to ask Thursday off in the first place. The deed was actually done by Jay on Friday when I came in for a shift I picked up for Chris Tracy. I remember feeling that something was off as soon as I got there because Gail and Nate were starring at me funny, like 'what is she doing here'. Jay said he wanted to call me earlier in the day but he got to busy. I'm glad though, because I wouldn't have wanted it to happen over the phone.

I totally understand why they fired me though, I don't know how I thought I was going to get it to work out anyway. Its just really humiliating getting fired, hurts. I should have just quit to begin with, but I wanted to keep it around just in case. On the upside, it is a burden off my shoulders because I've really started to hate that job lately. I am a bit worried about the money situation now. How am I going to avoid spending it all now without that second income? I just have to put my faith in God that He will provide a way. Its so hard though!

So now I'm into my second full week here at REM. This week I can really tell that the honeymoon period of last week is over. I can't seem to get enough sleep at all. I woke up at like noon on Wednesday, went to church, went to Perkins with peeps, and then went to work for the whole night. Thursday I got about four hours of sleep, got up to go to Jesse's birthday party before a training I had down at the REM office. Turns out I came into town early for no reason because they pushed the party back to six and I didn't bother to check before coming into town. The perk of this was that I got together with Beth for a short while then before my class. The class was super short, only an hour and a half.

So then I went to Luther's for the party. We watched Nightmare on Elm St. That was interesting considering I've never seen any of those old horror movies. Blood and Guts, all very fakey. We had some good ole' pizza and birthday cake. Not much going on but it was fun all the same. The guys told me about a movie called Fido. Something about having zombies as pets. They said its hilarious and that we'll watch it next Wednesday. We'll have to see about that, I'd be surprised if we did.

I had a really bad time at work on Friday morning. First off I was really tired because I only had four hours of sleep the day before and I couldn't hold my eyes open for most of the night. I didn't get much cleaning done and really slacked off that night. So that morning when Tom started getting snippy I didn't have any patience for it. He snapped at me when I asked him to rinse the shower and again when I asked him to change into some clean socks. He had put on the dirty ones from the day before. After a small exchange of asking and snapping he slammed his bedroom door in my face. I immediately gave Tom a minus. Tom didn't really care about the minus, he never does. After this, throughout the morning, Tom threw some names at me like jerk and Ms. Know-It-All. While this was all going on throughout the morning, Tracy was also obsessing about the Buick being back, that it was fixed and also about the Sh-Boom dance they were going to that night. Tom did apologize late in the morning but even this was not done right by him because admist my many reminders of "personal space", Tom insisted on giving me a hug. After that Tom had a better morning, but was still really high energy because that is just how he is every morning.

Now, Everything is done. They're routines are all done except Jeff and I'm just waiting for Elliot to come. Tracy has come out to play and hopefully hes gotten off of his current obsession. I haven't heard about it since about an hour ago so I think so. And now hes gone.

After work, I want to run to Kohl's and the Goodwill to hopefully find a bridal shower present for Kalyn. At Eleven I'm suppose to go pick up Chip and go to breakfast at Perkins with him. We'll see how that goes.

Chau!

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Friday, March 28, 2008

The Beautiful Letdown

Today I had to say good-bye to Tim today. Its never an easy thing. It got a little drawn out and it always comes to the point where I just want to hop in the car and drive off. Drive away and escape the emotions, the sorrow, the heartache.

We did have a great time though. I hooked up with Matt and Kalyn at NCU and headed over to the MoA to meet up with SCMC. It was great fun when as soon as I saw Tim, I ran full tilt to tackle him. Ka, Matt and I had a great time mall walking with Tim and Cousin Matt. We all sang every FIF song we could think of to sing. We also looked at some awesome "As Seen On TV" products. While we waited for everyone at the end of the night up on the forth floor, Tim and I slap boxed a bit and learned some new dance moves.

Afterwards Ka and I followed Matt Zimmer and Tim to Crossroads. Matt is insane, he hasn't lived there since he was like ten but he still knows how to get there. Met SCMC at the church and then followed them over to Matt Lopez's. That was fun except I don't think Big Z was happy. He wanted more alone time with Tim, which is perfectly understandable. I loved it though because by some turn of events we started singing a couple "family songs" at Lopez's. We sang Kalyn's favorite, the farmer song, and The Poor Old Slave. I love that, singing together, it makes me happy.

I, of course, stayed the night with Tim and SCMC. The church put us up in the empty parsonage down the street. Wednesday morning and early afternoon we spent cleaning the church and both of their buses. Fun stuff. They ran out of things for us to do so we were back to the house by around two. Lovebeat, Tim, Lopez, Aaron and I drove over to Lopez's to do some laundry and run errands. Fun times except that Pastor Kyle was a little upset that we weren't back by a certain time even though he never told us we had to be back by said time.

Wednesday night service was awesome! Real serious service over all, but we got to do a fun skit in the beginning, though that did get a little messed up by a random youth kid who came on stage. Pastor Kyle was in top shape bringing it all together in the end. Good Job! But, ya know, hey, when someone compliments you, just say thanks. Pastor Kyle needs to work on that a little bit, me thinks.

After church the family including Matt went out for supper at Applebees. That was fun. I don't remember much of what we talked about but it was fun. Tim had his usual debate about getting the oriental chicken bowl. He gets it every time we go to Applebees and every time he still doesn't like it. This time he amazingly got something different, I think it was ribblettes. I don't think he even liked those though. Tim can be a very picky eater.

After dinner we went over to Lopez's to join everyone else. This gave mom a chance to really meet everyone else on Tim's team, though I think she would have like a bit more family time. It was a fun time though. We sang lots of family songs, they showed us Thizz Face, and it was especially funny when Tim and Aaron did something they call Baby Huey. Mom laughed so hard. Since it was already about one in the morning Mom and Peter decided just to drive home that night.

I again stayed the night with Tim and peeps at the parsonage. That was some good ol' times. Tamara and I stayed up late talking while Christina fell asleep right away...again. I didn't really get to talk all that much with Christina this time. While I was in Las Vegas I got along with Christina well and didn't really talk with Tamara at all there. Funny how that works. In the morning I was a bit disappointed to find that Tim had gone with Matt to get the oil changed for the van. But maybe that was a good thing, to take away some of those awkward, painful moments before we had to part ways.

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Saturday, March 22, 2008

Godspeed

Been a little while since I've last posted. A little bit has happened. I did get hired for the awake overnight position with REM Arrowhead Inc. I've already had two training days which consisted of long hours sitting in offices reading booklets and taking little quizzes. Not much to it but I did get paid a lot of money to do it. I've already made almost double a weeks wages at Bridgeman's in only two days at REM. Wonderful thing that.

I'm going down to Prior Lake to see Tim this Tuesday. I'm very excited about that. Unfortunately, its sounding more and more like I'm going down by myself. Beth has school and work, so does Joseph. And for the life of me, I can't get a hold of Kali. Its also starting to seem like the parents won't get to see him at all. That would be really sad.

I know I really need to save money for next year but that is going to be really hard this week since it sound like I will be taking two out of town trips. The afore mentioned trip and also a random road trip with JennaRose for her spring break and since I have the time off I figured I would indulge her. Hopefully only the first will be in my car, though I suppose it doesn't matter because we'll split gas anyways.

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Friday, March 14, 2008

Rise and Shine....

...And Give God The Glory

I didn't sleep last night. It was fun. Played Oblivion until about seven a.m. Read for a while and just when I had turned off the light, my phone rang. Low and Behold it was our friendly neighborhood REM Arrowhead Inc. Lady named Rachel. When I think about it, if I hadn't stayed up all night, I probably wouldn't have gotten that call. So, maybe it was a good thing? She was calling because an awake-overnight position had suddenly become open. So, ya know, I was the obvious person to call. Anyways, she called and we made an appointment for one o'clock this afternoon.

Well, after all this I decided not to try to sleep at all. So, I did some laundry, had some breakfast, took a shower, got ready and left. Compared to the TLC interview, this one lasted a long time. The TLC one was about ten or fifteen, while the REM one was an hour or an hour and fifteen. All good times. I liked Rachel, she was more intimidating than Heather but, she gave me a lot more information up front than Heather did.

After the interview, I guess its standard to have the interviewee go visit the house. You're suppose to meet the clients and get a feel for the home. The house director, Destiny, was also in the interview. She happened to be heading up to the house right after the meeting so I just followed there. Destiny showed me around the house and introduced me to all the guys. This is a house in Twig with four guys, all with DD. One, Tracy, also has OCD. When I visited he was the only one that really hung out with the staff. All the others seemed to be fine on their own in their rooms.

Rachel explained basically what my duties would be. I start at ten, by that time the guys will be asleep. Most of my work throughout the night would be cleaning the house. I mean deep cleaning, scrubbing, disinfecting, organizing and anything that needs work. Also any miscellaneous paper work that needs to be done. In the morning, at about six or six-thirty I will get the guys up. Some time in here, at six I think, another staff will arrive to help me with the morning rituals. All the guys go to work at eight so as soon they are gone, I'm done.

I still need to call Rachel on Monday and talk again. I am very hopeful. Pray for me.

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Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Up Too Late, Out Too Early

This morning I had a job interview with TLC of Duluth. It was at eight-thirty and all things considered I think it went pretty well. Interviews are always super short, this one lasted like ten minutes. I was interviewed by a women named Heather. She was nice and personable, not intimidating, so that was good. She actually didn't ask me as many questions as I thought she would. I told her about how I would rather an over night position and she said she thought she still had some open. The way she said it made me think that she meant if there was one open, then it was mine. She said she would call all the house supervisors to see if there was an open position and that she would contact me tomorrow. That's happy because the waiting game isn't fun.

I didn't sleep at all last night because of those wonderful pre-interview nerves. I probably got about two hours of sleep. So I came right home, had breakfast and took a nap. For, ya know, a really long time. Spent most of the day watching movies with Peter and Dad. We watched The Shadow and Pirates of the Caribbean: At Worlds End. Fun stuff. Mom has been at church all evening and she is just now heading home. I feel bad that they play is taking up all her evening lately.

I'm really hoping I get a call from TLC tomorrow. Though I'll be at Bridgeman's all morning and afternoon, so I'll probably miss it. Here's hoping.

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Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Day of Days

I feel bad about the last post. It was mean and petty. Though, I’m not going to delete it. This blog seems to be more about knowing myself than others knowing me. As long as you understand that, I think we’ll be fine. I want to be able to look back and know who I was at this point in time. All this aside I am sorry for the blunt weapon of my speech.

Right now the church’s internet is really frustrating me. I’m connected to the network, I have five bars, it is clearly a strong signal. But I’m not getting any internet at all. It just comes up Server not found. Arla said something about it not being able to handle too many computers on at a time. Well, that mustn’t be it because I think there is only one other computer on right now. It just won’t work. Why? I have tried to connect at other times, other days and it never has worked. I’m very frustrated.

I just talked to PK and he said that you have to have a password to log on and they are only giving out a limited number of passwords. PK said he doesn’t even have a password. But he did say that I could use his office computer.

This morning we got some not so awesome news from Peter. He tells us that his laptop and video camera were left in his unlocked car over night. Consequently, they were not there in the morning. It seems to be exactly the kind of that always happens to Peter. We also don’t have the serial number for any of his stuff. So that if it were to show up at a pawn shop, we wouldn’t be able to claim it without the serial number. All in all, I am very disappointed.

After work today I went right to church to meet mom to help with The Passion Play stage crew. She was supposed to be there at 4:30 and I had gotten off work at 3:30. Seemed like the perfect time to have a chat with PK. Unfortunately, he had left the church an hour beforehand and had gone home. While it may have been a bit presumptuous, I just drove over to his house to see if he wanted grab a bite. It was all a bit awkward just showing up at his house expecting him to come do something with me. Though, PK always does seem to be a good sport about instantaneous gatherings.

He and I went over to Caribou Coffee for some, ya know, coffee. PK brought his lappy so that we could take a look at The Altered Youth Group blog and so I could explain it to him, not that it needed much explaining. Well, that didn’t quite work out. We couldn’t get PK’s lappy to work. It wouldn’t see the network or something like that. I think it could at some point since at first it did start to try to load caribou.com. I didn’t get it. PK’s lappy is really kinda, very old.

We did talk about Peter and stuff… I don’t really remember what else we spoke of. Something about how it is rude to talk on the phone while you’re with people. About how we’ll be switching youth leader meetings from Monday nights to Wednesday nights after church. I don’t know, we just talked about random stuff.

Random of random, I saw Niki Tungren at Caribou. She introduced me to her boyfriend Charles…err…I think that was his name. She and her boy where sitting playing DS while waiting for her car’s oil change to be done. I introduced her to PK and that awkward, here is this person I’m here with, kind of way.

Now I am sitting in the sanctuary watching them run through a dress rehearsal. As exciting as this may be, I think I’ll head home soon. So long, Gents.

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Saturday, March 8, 2008

Death By Xanga

I now have a Myspace account. And I still hate it. I find it very annoying. Not aesthetically pleasing at all. I don't find the set up of the site instinctual at all. Yup, definitely still hate it.

Speaking of Myspace, judging from her Myspace, I'd have to say that Ari has really gone downhill since moving to the cities. Not that she had the greatest friends in Duluth, but I do believe she had some good influences. She has always been a drama queen. She has always had a way of being mature but incredibly immature all at the same time. The whole time I've known her, she has always told me of her friendships that are a total roller coaster. One day a friend hates her and the next they love her. She always tells me of how much a genius she is while at the same time failing classes. Maybe its just her attitude that sucks.

Now her Myspace blog tells me that she's practically engaged. Seems a bit young. Though I've got to say Jonathon is the first boyfriend that I have kinda maybe liked. I've never known what to think of Ari as a Christian. I think she's always been extremely liberal and I'm sure that's mostly due to Marsha's influence. All that Feminist crap about how she gets offended when guys hold the door open for her. Sorry. That was the longest rant ever. I was just suddenly fed up with all the crap. Its hard to really to know a person anymore when you don't talk anymore and all you have for communication is little blurbs here and there not really meant for one another's eyes and ears.

Ya know, as long as I'm ranting I think I'll say a little something else. So a couple weeks ago, Kaylin really hurt my feelings. She told me about how I wasn't going to be one of her brides maids. Well, that was no surprise, I never expected to be. Then she told me that I would be an attendant. You know that would be okay if she hadn't then told me that she had already made Nicole her attendant, the Bride's Attendant. Kaylin told me that she had already asked Nicole before she knew if there would be room for me to be a bride's maid. So now I'm nothing and Nicole is the Bride's attendant. I don't mean to sound petty but I just really feel like I've been passed up for Nicole. So now every one of my friend is in this wedding, even freaking Nicole, except me. I don't really feel that bad about it anymore but at the time it really did hurt. I mean, for real, as soon as we left church, in the car, I told Mom about it and cried.

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Thursday, March 6, 2008

All That Good Emotional Prayer

I have too many wonderful beautiful ideas for youth group. I want to start a blog in which the students may discuss their lives. Too question everything they are told. I want them to really think about what they are fed and make sure they really know their faith. I don’t want it to just be our parent’s faith any more. To take it and make it their own, and to in turn give it to those around them. I believe that people are much more affected by their peers than any teacher or adult. I want the kids to embrace God full heartedly. I want to make them think about it.

Another wonderful, beautiful idea of mine is to restart the Announcement Team. It would be absolutely wonderful if I could barrow Peter’s hard drive camera. That would make it so much easier. Just load it onto the lappy and away we go. Make all sorts of cool little videos, even just have the kids do it. Though, I would be surprised if Peter let me barrow his camera, even just for the evening. So we’ll see where this idea goes. I just think that it would just be an easy, fun way to get some of the kids involved.

Now Tim has gone and brought my spirits down and/or brought my mind back to reality, I haven't decided yet. I'm unhappy.

I have also volunteered to take over the youth group myspace page. The only reason I did was because I know there is no one else who would be willing. Wish me success with this endeavor. I'm not looking forward to it considering I have never in my life used myspace and hate it with quite the passion. Take my hands as Yours.

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Wednesday, March 5, 2008

A New Hope

Is this what this is? A New Hope?
A chance to start over. Scary. What if I don't succeed? To Wallow in hopelessness.
Give me light, strength and a need larger than any temptation.
A New Hope, Cast off My Burdens.

Tonight is Youth Group. I feel strange. I don't know what to do. Will Pastor Kyle announce my youth leaderage to the youth and make a big deal or will he say nothing at all. I kinda think that he won't say anything. Please, let me keep my ears open to you. Let my heart love and let no annoyance deter my efforts. Both internal and external.

A couple days ago Beth told me that Cindy Turnquist had inquired weather she would be interested in nannying for her. Beth told her no. However, Beth told me that I should look into it. It pays good, and there's only two or three kids. But I have heard that both Kiki and Ivy have some sort of Attention Deficit Disorder. I don't know the truth to that, but it makes me a little wary. I'm really hoping to get one of these night PCA jobs. But even that would only be at night. So maybe I'll be blessed and get both and it'll work perfectly.

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Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Haku

Here
is
our
temporary
puppy,
Haku!

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Sunday, March 2, 2008

A Burn or A Shiver

This weekend, JennaRose was in town, therefore, mass hang out. Bunches of us went bowling at Skyline on Saturday night. Bunches being: JennaRose, Billy, Luther, Ben, Joe, Beth, Dan, and I. We played on two lanes, Dan, Ben, JR, and Luther on one and Billy, Beth, Joe and me were on the other. It was fun, Joe was surprisingly good, considering he said he hadn't played since he was ten. I did feel bad for Bill though, because he sucked. I mean really sucked.

After we were done bowling we stuck around the bowling alley for a while, loitering. Fun stuff that. The group found a nice big booth to take over and decided cards were needed. We played a round of BS and I have now decided that my friends just aren't fun to play that game with. Nobody ever wants to call BS and only I do. By the end of the game I had half the deck, not fun. Somewhere in here, Laura Nelson joined us. Following BS was a rousing game of Spoons played with Drivers License, since we didn't have any spoons. Good Times. Astonishingly, neither Bill nor Laura knew how to play. I thought everybody knew how to play Spoons. What the Freak!

The plan here was to go to AppleBees for half off Apps. But we had to waste some time until nine. So off the Barnes & Nobles we went. Jesse joined us here. We basically stood around looking at different book, talking, laughing, and...Loitering. I did pick up a copy of Journey to Victorious Praying for Kate. See, I knew it was in the store somewhere. I may return it though if it turns out I can barrow it from Mrs. Vespa.

AppleBees was packed. We all squished into one of those large corner booths. It was a fun time...kinda. I felt like Laura was dominating Jenna's attention and I was too far away to be apart of the guys conversation. General low quality conversation. Jenna and Laura had a really awkward discussion about whether they would have oral sex with their husband. Not something I expected to come from them. It was a good thing none of the boys were paying attention and I think Beth was just lost. That is Ok with me. I had to work Sunday morning so I left first. Not much to it.

Like I said I had to work Sunday morning. Anders was the other host. He really annoyed me. Usually I'm just fine with him, or can at least stand him. Not this morning. He really annoyed me.

On a lighter note, we're currently dog-sitting for John and Nora. They got a yellow lab puppy a week or two ago. His name is Oscar, though I have renamed him Haku because I think he looks Asian. After Haku from Spirited Away. He's really cute and all around pretty easy to take care of.

posted by June @ 10:43 PM 2 comments

Hometown Glory

So in this blog, I'm going to try to be as truthful as possible. Not pulling any punches so that I don't hurt any ones feelings. Not hiding behind pretty masks just for the sake of hiding.

I'll start by telling you of the city wide youth worship night event that occurred this past Friday night. When I first heard about it I didn't think much of it, not really my kind of thing, but Kate kept talking about it and eventually I decided that I may as well go. I think my leaderism helped convince me that I should go as well.

I arrived at six which was when I was told it would start. However, there was close to no one there and wasn't even started. So I figured it must start at six-thirty. But, no, indeed it was to start at six. Suffice it to say, there were not many in attendance. Despite the low numbers, I believe the event was a success. From HCC we had Kate Monson, James Walker, Lana Duren, and Eric Rauvola. We had wonderful worship with Duluth Tabernacle's youth band, which was led by their youth pastor. Awesome all around. John Stainbrook was on acoustic guitar. Another kid from LCA was on drums, I think his name was Eric... maybe. And some other guy who I didn't know, but was really cute, was on bass.

After worship we had some joint prayer time, which was absolutely amazing. There was an open mike in front that we could use to pray as a group and agreeing in prayer and jazz like that. We prayed for the city, youth, addiction, lost loved ones, etc. I followed the Omen of the Rock and prayed for Authority through Jesus' name. That was fun and emotional and Kate loved it. Funny.

When all was said and prayed, Perkins on London Rd seemed the place to be. Not much going on there except that Pastor Luke brought a goat's horn. The guys took it outside and blew it, pretty awesome. Luke said his father-in-law blows it in worship, something having to do with a prophesy in the bible. Neat. And stinkin' hilarious.

posted by June @ 4:52 PM 1 comments

Friday, February 29, 2008

Beginning Again

I am starting a new blog for the purpose of a New Beginning. I want to be a better me, to change my ways through the help of Jesus Christ.
I am starting a new blog so that I may chronicle these years of limbo. To look back with a vague sense of purpose, to know what I was doing at this time in this place.

posted by June @ 11:30 PM 2 comments

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Name: June
Home: Duluth, Minnesota, United States
About Me: I am a Christian. I work as much as I possibly can, which sometimes isn't very much. I'm a Youth Leader and absolutely love all my kids.
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